Re: movie star
hello Suzanne,
well, the sitiuation is a little bit surrealistic now: I'm hearing some modern Christmas
songs from a cd I bought to my daughter. She is in side of me, dancing... An aunt of my
wife is here too, but she doesn't understand english, so I can write without further
preoccupations
>
> > Fortunately I didn't lost it and I don't want to imagine what
> > would become of me if I
> > did it!
>
> > oh poor Suzanne. How are you now?
>
> it was a false alarm. I have no idea what that was except the speculation that
> the one day I was out in the cow pasture didn't agree with my sinuses.
but it was a good experience even with all this, wasn't it? I think it's a price we have
to pay sometimes.
>
> But jeez, I was tired on sunday.
>
> i was sort of praying for illness. a day off from everything. I do that until
> I get sick and then I wise up and remember why i hate being sick.
hehe...
Being sick was a somewhat good experience during my childhood, because my mother always
said to me to not go to school when I had even weak flus... and I've always wanted
having a little bit sick to not go to work - but when I'm sick this way, I stay in bed
all day long what is a rather good experience.
"Jesus Jesus you spoke and nobody heard" is what I'm hearing now (in portuguese), in the
cd I bought to my daughter...
>
> I sort of got that when the weather turned bad and there was ice on the road,
> but I wasted it by getting up nearly on time this morning. I thought everyone
> would be there, but I beat the next closest person in by an hour.
oh, I hate cold days, and I think I said it to you...
the weather here is very hot today, but it's raining weakly since the hours, what
refreshes the weather. So it's Curitiba is a good place to be stay right now.
>
> > I thought I was getting a flu the night from Monday to Tuesday
> > because I was so tired
> > and I had pain in my body and I pratically couldn't sleep.
> > Yesterday night I was like
> > this too, as I wrote you. But almost miraculously I am much
> > better today. My daughter is
> > sleeping and I'm writing much earlier than I use to (it's
> > exactly 19:37 pm now).
>
> > Well, probably she'll wake up in when Í'll be writing, so I'll
> > have to finish this
> > message at night!
>
> don;'t want her seeing what your hobbies are?
hehe, normally we stay together in the dining room where's there's no computer... but
right now she is with me in the computer room and she wants to see a cd-rom with me...
i'll have to return after it...
... hey, it's 1:23 am and my daughter doesn`t want to sleep at all. She is alone at the
dining room, and this worrying me...
>
> > I am hearing Bach now - oh it's so wonderful!
>
> I'm listening to Blur. i got it a couple of hours ago because i had this weird
> craving for it.
Well, I always have weird craving for buying cds!
And this blur one is good? it seems to.
As for what I'm listening now, I'm hearing the soap opera made children called
"Chiquititas"...
well, more minutes passed sind and hey, I don't believe what I did! I brought my
computer to the dining room to be in side of my daughter!
I can't really believe...
>
> > oh, I have to see this film!
>
> > oh, I didn't see this film unfortunately - probably I'll have to
> > do it the next days.
>
> haven't you seen the guy who plays the miniature version of Dr. Evil?? The
> midget!
oh no...
>
> > so you were lead by a man on a horse with his face painted? this
> > is amazing!
>
> it was funny and strange at the same time.
this is exactly the idea I have about it.
>
> despite that and being there for 12 hours, I enjoyed it.
hehe... I would like it too. I like doing intense things.
>
> > you see, I would like to make something like that in a film.
> > There was a time when I
> > wanted to be a TV actor, because I dreamt frequently I was one.
>
> I've always had that dream. I sort of got a little start way back in
> highschool when I did a couple of plays, but it was miserable with a very odd
> ending to it all.
>
> I remember my first play that I was a librarian in Up the Downstair Case. It
> was a small role and I got it mostly because they couldn't get enough people
> to be in the play.
>
> Anyway, it was a battle of me vs. everyone else. Even though I had tiny
> scenes, the drama teacher kept picking on me perpetually like I was the worst
> thing. The bitch even stole my script when she couldn't find hers and played
> dumb when I came around looking for it. Everyone on the cast was a bunch of
> the popular kids who weren't exactly forgiving.
It's common seeing in american movies how bad are these "popular" kids in general.
That's why I like Dawson's Creek so much - as me the principal characters aren't
"popular" ones but they simply don't care about the "popular". They have their own
group. It's a kind of relief to the normal people, because in Dawson's Creek the
"non-popular" have self esteem in general. We should unite and take over, you know?
>
> So, the opening night comes, and I'm like "screw it" and I went up on stage
> and delivered my first line and walked off and EVERYBODY in the audience
> started laughing. Considering the treatment I had been getting for the past
> month, I knew they were laughing at how bad I was and some guy back stage even
> offered consolation because he thought that they too were laughing at me.
>
> So, I went backstage just kind of dejected and wondering why I was there.
> Then, my next part came up, and I did that, and they laughed again, but this
> time I heard someone say, "she's wonderful!"
>
> There was a comment box near the entrance where some anonymous people left
> some nice comments. The Vice principal loved it. For the next year he kept
> coming up to me wanting me to do those lines again.
So there was more than a person that liked your job? And they people laughed because
they liked you or not?
>
> For the life of me, I couldn't figure out why I was being treated like @#!!!
> by everyone involved in the production, but everyone else really went for it.
> I still can't.
I really felt for you now, believe me. It seems a thing that still hurts you badly,
doesn't it?
I can't blame you.
I know what's being rejected means, and I know how difficult is to forget about it.
But we can change things, believe me.
>
> > I can imagine what's it but I don`t know exactly what cheesey
> > is.
>
> very garish and overdone, but in a sappy kind of way.
ohm, you have written "cheesey" in a very positif way indeed.
>
> > hehehe...
>
> > Oh, I don't know him - but I'll try to do it!
>
> > A friend of mine told me exactly this today, and that this is
> > the easier way to install
> > Lynux. But in fact it's possible to share your HD, but Lynux
> > people made it so difficult
> > that it seems impossible. I think they don`'t want anybody with
> > another system outside
> > Lynux. They are the new Bill Gates, you know.
>
> That's the way they all are.
I begin to believe in it.
>
> > it was a good experience to me as I'm seeing it's not worth to
> > say things in portuguese
> > hoping that you won't understand it!
>
> don't get me wrong. if you do say many things in portugeuse, I won't
> understand. The little squiggly marks throw me off.
ok, but I have to take care anyway...
>
> > It's a very popular meat from South of Brazil. People make put
> > lots of meat (T-bone, I
> > think) under fire made of charcoal. The meat is tempered
> > normally with some sea salt (I
> > don't know if it's called like that).
>
> yes, we have it at the grocery store.
>
> > It's wonderful.
>
> i'll never know, but i'll take your word for it.
oh yeah, I am a Morrissey fan and I even was a vegetarian when I was 14 (!) but oh the
"churrasco" is really something.
>
> > Well, Brazilian eats lots of meat (not the very poor obviously).
> > People from Europe or
> > Japan are usually astonished when they see it here.
>
> and you may be astonished going to Las Vegas where everything is served with
> t-bone steak. It's insane.
I think I would love it...
People from Europe and Japan use to say the quantity we serve of meat is insane too.
>
> > you explainde perfectly what I feel...
>
> > ...well, fortunately there are some cute students to see, you
> > see?
>
> > oh, it's wonderful to walk. When I stopped to do it I saw how
> > much I missed it.
>
> > this hiatus is because of the Christmas parties?
>
> yes. everyone going home for the holidays.
Do you like these end of year parties? I am crazy about them.
It's true that when you become an adult all these parties are more stressing. But I like
them all the same.
>
> > I had a boss like this - he always complained of working to
> > much, but the only thing he
> > really did was
> > bother others...
>
> i talked to the supervisor of our department today. Not really talked, but
> from what he asked me, I got the idea that he has no idea that I'm covering
> that second desk.
you said something about covering another one's mistakes - are you referring to this?
> Meaning someone else has been saying, "oh, I have to put ALL
> these formats in" and then turning around and asking me to do it.
as you are saying it seems they really need you don`t they?
>
> > Ok, he did it a lot. If you call this a work, he worked too much
> >
>
> > well, as you have told me probably this other girl out of
> > popularity is the one to be
> > puped of, isn't she?
>
> what?
I think the girl out of popularity is the one who is "pumped of" before being ripped of.
my daughter seems to be relaxing now... it's 2:31am now...
>
>
> > a sort of hidden racism, isn't it? as you said black people have
> > to be helped to be
> > somebody.
>
> yes.
but I can't blame these white ones totally. There are so few black people in Curitiba,
and normally they are very poor, and there are so many racism "hidden" in Brazil that if
I see some black people I try to be much more gentle to them than I am normally with
white ones (as though I was a guy full of sympathy, but it seems I am not too much with
people that are not my friends). Is this some kind of racism too?
>
> > To carry watermelons from the neck to receive attention from
> > others? oh we have exactly
> > this expression!
>
> no, i dont' think we mean the same thing.
>
> What I mean is a stereotype that all black people sit around and do nothing
> but eat watermelon and chitlins.
oh yeah - it's a completely different meaning indeed. The watermelons made me think
wrong things indeed.
>
> There was a movie in the 70's called Watermelon Man. It played off of that.
> The movie was about some middle-bread white guy who wakes up one morning and
> finds he is black.
and then he begins to do nothing?
there's a film I heard about where John Travolta is a white in a country where blacks
are dominators - it seems interesting.
>
> > I understand you - I hate scanning things. It's so boring...
>
> > Oh, i hope you are better now.
>
> > ok, but he's not blond!
>
> bleach blond doesn't do it for me either...
hehe... At least I'm not blond...
>
> > well, now you are messing me...
>
> > well, the original phrase follows:
>
> > "
> > I have to thank Melody Maker for introducing me to that
> > phrase....
>
> > it's a euphemism, and no, you can't see them in the pic. I just
> > thought it was
> > an odd thing to break off the (let's use Monty Python for this)
> > naughty bits
> > on a tombstone
> > "
>
> > heheh, the thing became funny.
>
> > I don't know why but I'm laughing now.
>
> You should be! It was meant to be funny.
Oh really? I didn`t think so.
And I thought it funny!
>
> > perhaps he like opposite things puting together.
>
> > The sequence of songs before his recent shows for example.
>
> Hmmm...I don't think anyone is going to break his arm if he changes it. It's
> customary. Sort of like "welcome to my turf"
ok, but I'm glad Morrissey seems to have a so eccentric musical taste as mine.
>
> > Hey, I understand him!
>
> > bono seems to like him, isn't he?
>
> I suppose. Do they hang out? who knows!
Hang out? I have never heard about it.
>
> > so do you think that just social relations are important to
> > create a personality?
>
> > I don't agree with you - we have some biological desires (as sex
> > for example), and they make part of our personality too. I don't
> > know which percentage social and biological aspects have in our
> > personality but I'm sure both are present.
>
> Oh, I'm not denying that we have the components to feel these things because
> obviously if we didn't have that part of our brain, we wouldn't be able to
> feel anything.
>
> What I mean is the meaning attached to what we do.
>
> For example, they did this study where they took a baby and dressed it in
> blue. They would wait for it to start crying and then leave it out for
> unsuspecting people to deal with. They would approach this assumably male baby
> and ask "oh, who made him angry?"
>
> When they took the same baby and dressed it in pink, people began asking, "oh,
> who scared her?"
>
> As you can obviously see, the baby was crying for the exact same reason when
> it was dressed in blue that it was dressed in pink. The reality hadn't
> changed. The only thing that changed was what people thought about the baby's
> cries.
>
> Dont' you see how powerful this is? The male child is being consoled in his
> anger, while the female is being consoled in her fright and inability to take
> care of herself.
interesting indeed - I didn't know about this experience. I think you are correct in the
most important part.
>
> And you do realize that one year olds of any gender are equally incapable of
> defending themselves should a pack of wild dogs descend upon them?
ok, but there's no doubt women are generally weaker physically spaking than men. This is
a biological reason to some social traditions. Well, great part of social behaviours are
based on biological reasons: for example women is normally more faithful than men - of
course she had to carry the baby inside her during nine months and not the men, so she
had to pay more attention to fidelity.
>
> Anyway, as they grow up, they already have ingrained in them the ideas of what
> people find acceptable behavior.
yeah, I have basically to agree with you, but there's no doubt our biology is always
waiting to appear even if social convenances try to hide them.
>
> > You see, it makes sense the point some biologists say that if a
> > girl wants a cute guy, she wants her children cute too. But how
> > important is this biological side I really don't know.
>
> Biologists are freaks. I'm sorry. If you read any science literature through
> the ages, you notice it is full of very arcane interpretations about women and
> men. Just because it's the year 2000 doesn't mean they are any smarter than
> the year 1750. They are chauvinists who don't really get their heads out of
> their textbooks long enough to open their eyes and see what is really
> happening out there. Most of them are part of the idiot-bourgeois class, and
> the reason they got their degrees is because they know how to mix chemicals in
> a test tube for their big project.
Well, as a religious guy I really can't agree with most things biologists think. The neo
darrwinists who say everything is biology should work with humour and not with science.
So I liked what you wrote.
>
> When i see a hot looking dude, I'm not thinking, "oh, I'll have cute
> children!" That's plain retarded.
> It's just like guys looking at girls. We
> realize that we're going to have to stare at this guy for the next few years
> and forgive us for wanting something that doesn't look like Sam Donaldson. I
> don't spend all my hours dreaming of neat ways I can procreate cute little
> babies.
ok, ok... but all scientists say this process is completely inconscient - it may have
even some social reasons to it (the experience of various generations can make people
think this way). What do you think about this possibility?
>
> And as I was saying about meaning, when a guy sees a beautiful girl, do they
> think about what cute babies they are going to have? No, you would think that
> was dumb and so would the scientists.
Now, the guy certainly don`t think about babies, but perhaps his instinct does.
>
> And furthermore, tell me something: if your daughter came up to you and asked
> for a toy truck, would you let her have it? would you steer her back to her
> dolls?
Well I have already given a big truck to her and she really liked id - but she prefer
dolls.
I try to be a father in a rather easy way...
and the poor child finally slept (it's 3:02 now)! I'll have a big job put my computer in
the computer room again...
... and then I am in the computer room again, after having to deal with some problems...
> > oh I read it on the bus and I really enjoyed it. For example,
> > the driver of Moz stuff was great! And all the story was really
> > amazing.
>
> strange how I started going in one direction and then that started popping
> in...like an extension of my first story.
well, I didn't perceive the relation between both - I'll have to see it again.
>
> > But the first one, you see? I saw some coincidences there, and I
> > don't know how to ask about them...
>
> go ahead. I can't remember since the vast majority of that was written months
> ago.
well, there was a guy with a german name ("Not recently German, but his family was,", just like me) and talking about a girl that came to see him and suddenly came back to her city ("She's not tired. She wants an excuse to leave." (...) "She figured out you weren't single.") Almost like the dream I had about you.
Well, there were some coincidences in it.
>
> > but not that much, you see?
>
> > I have this problem too - I have a, I don't know how to say it
> > in English, skin under my tongue bigger than the normal that
> > makes my pronouncing funny. In portuguese we called it
> > língua-presa (bounded-tongue ??)
>
> never heard of it or the condition...
oh certainly you had - I didn't explain well for sure. I have to ask a doctor who knows english to explain you.
>
> > I understand, and I am a little bit like that.
>
> > well, I can speak french but I studied it during 10 years....
> >
>
> i would hope.
>
> > yes, you are correct. I thought about it already.
>
> > I would like to take an accoustic guitar (I played it a little
> > bit) and sing an old blues song. Just for me.
>
> i have an acoustic, but it sits and gathers dust.
I HAD an accoustic
>
> > And I should speak better german to try to make bad things with
> > Schubert!
>
> that might be frightening.
hehehe... why?
>
> > Anyway, I can sing some kitsch Brazilian songs - it's funny,
> > it's easy and you don't even use an instrument!
>
> > I'll try to
>
> > and as for morrissey? I carry his songs as if they made part of
> > me.
>
> i know they are made out of a part of me!
>
> he's a crazy little guy, but I swear when I read his bio, I felt like I was
> reading a lot of myself. Not in that music sense of I'm a depressed
> loner/outsider, but something in the thought process of getting from A to B.
> The same tendencies to duck out of things and be just overall slackers.
I think I don`t have these tendencies but when I see Morrissey it is just like I knew what he is thinking. He has a way of looking that I think is similar to mine.
Oh I hope so.
And my cutting hair is almost similar to his. But I don`t have a forelock - it would be ridiculous.
>
> > I thought about it all the time during my "Lynux
> > adventure"... it almost makes part of me already.
>
> The Lynux Blues with Schubert countermelodies....
hehehe... I am obsessive with things, am not I?
and sorry if this message was too strange...