Life seems to be unfathomable. I despair sometimes on how I've not learned to live it. Why should anything be a mystery? Why should anything be hidden? Why should anything perturb you? Why should you feel uneasy? Why should you feel inadequate? I can only think we all must have done something terribly amiss somewhere else to warrant this amount of hardship. It's your god given right to be happy. Its your god given right to not feel sad. Its you're God given right to not feel pain. You should never, ever, have to suffer. Youre not around for long enough to learn any lessons from hardship. You're here for a few decades and then you're gone. There are no lessons to be learned because there's not enough time to learn them. If something displeases you you haven't enough time to put up with it. You can't be a good or bad person in the span of your lifetime. You're gone in a flash. Do whatever you want.