thank you very much i don't think its sick or sad though its like you choose something you like and the internet is able to match you with other people who like it witch in turn allows you to like it more its kind of beatiful really before i came hear i would just turn out all the lights out in my room and sit on the floor against the wall cuddling my knees as i listened to moz and though i still do that sometimes i like the forum more its like it give me a break from being myself if that makes any sense?