Are you ok? I wondered if you were abused or bullied a child? You come across as someone who is troubled and vulnerable.I feel that this is someone who's never been able to enjoy the simple things in life that others take for granted. He's older and richer now and trying to choose between the solitude that becomes him and the company he's always craved and which he could easily attain due to his current status. He's still that insecure little boy waiting to 'be enticed inside', when really he can have both. He can have solitude when he wishes and he can have society when he wishes. It's not one or the other. But he's still the little boy 'waiting to be asked'