Everybody`s Got Somebody

I usually never write here at this hour but I had a dream and it just had made me feel like it.

I have never been the type of girl who dreamed of big,white wedding dresses and big,fancy weddings.That just wasn`t me. But I didn`t dream of being alone either. I have my family but I can`t help feeling alone because I don`t have a romantic relationship.

It wouldn`t be bad to have someone to talk to and lie next to at night.I guess I would like to have something like that.I guess I only have myself to blame for being in the place I`m in.I don`t think I ever really tried for various reasons.The main one being "no one will ever like me".So I thought to myself why even try.I am/was just so afraid of being rejected.I do know that you don`t need another person to define or complete you but I guess what I`m saying is sucks to be lonely.I hate feeling like I don`t have much to show for my life and that makes me feel like such a loser.I feel I`m at an age when everything should be settled(almost everyone I know is married with kids) instead I just feel so lost a great deal of the time.Maybe what I long for is stability especially inside my head.

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You just keep making me say "Wow!" when I read your blog.
For the first time, I see a process emerging.
I knew something was going on when I read you, externally examining everything. And since that post, it has been a steady progression of forward movement. Well done you, on all of these accomplishments!
I don't want to distract you from it by saying too much about it or over analyzing things. But, I couldn't not mention what I am seeing because I hope you're clocking the advances and that they are in fact, encouraging to you. You are having (and coping with very effectively, I might add!) feelings that are so broadly experienced by humans that they might be the closest any of us get to "normal". Now Tibs, when we hear from you, it isn't you talking to us from the other side of a void.
Whatever it is, keep this ball rolling.
You know, I kept saying, either they'll find the magic combo of meds, eventually, or if it's hormonal, it will just phase itself out.
I don't know how it's transpiring, but it is.
And I'm not the only person in here who can see this.
I want to just whoop, loudly right now, because I am so happy for you!!
I'm not happy that you're lonely, I'm happy that your time alone is coming to an end. You, my sweet love, are getting better!!
Pleasant dreams, this time.
So glad you felt like writing, it made my day!
 
My Only Weakness;bt4711 said:
You just keep making me say "Wow!" when I read your blog.
For the first time, I see a process emerging.
I knew something was going on when I read you, externally examining everything. And since that post, it has been a steady progression of forward movement. Well done you, on all of these accomplishments!
I don't want to distract you from it by saying too much about it or over analyzing things. But, I couldn't not mention what I am seeing because I hope you're clocking the advances and that they are in fact, encouraging to you. You are having (and coping with very effectively, I might add!) feelings that are so broadly experienced by humans that they might be the closest any of us get to "normal". Now Tibs, when we hear from you, it isn't you talking to us from the other side of a void.
Whatever it is, keep this ball rolling.
You know, I kept saying, either they'll find the magic combo of meds, eventually, or if it's hormonal, it will just phase itself out.
I don't know how it's transpiring, but it is.
And I'm not the only person in here who can see this.
I want to just whoop, loudly right now, because I am so happy for you!!
I'm not happy that you're lonely, I'm happy that your time alone is coming to an end. You, my sweet love, are getting better!!
Pleasant dreams, this time.
So glad you felt like writing, it made my day!



I thought this was really well put , My Only Weakness.


Even if it doesn't necessarily feel like it , Tibs , there's always time to have a future. Keep up the good fight !
 
Charlie-Thanks for all your kind words and encouragement.It does help me and it does mean a great deal to me. That morning after waking up from that dream those thoughts were just swirling around my head.I just had to let them out.Thanks again for your comments Charlie.I hope you are well and are having a wonderful day. :) :)

123xyz- Thank you for your comments and encouragement. :) :)

Thanks again

Always.

Tibbs
 
all well-said, you crazy kids!

I feel lonely too because of the no-romance thing, but I've found that after nine plus years of being single that I'm really quite good at it. As Morrissey would say, "I save so much money going out on dates alone."

stability in the head is better than a hot guy in bed, Tibbs. that's my motto at least. feel free to borrow it!

yours in lonely splendor,

s.
 
scumbag;bt4748 said:
all well-said, you crazy kids!

I feel lonely too because of the no-romance thing, but I've found that after nine plus years of being single that I'm really quite good at it. As Morrissey would say, "I save so much money going out on dates alone."

stability in the head is better than a hot guy in bed, Tibbs. that's my motto at least. feel free to borrow it!

yours in lonely splendor,

s.

Hey S.

You are so right about stability in the head I hope to experience it one day. :p As for the other thing.....oh well. I think I'm good at being single too.Actually I've been really successful at it. I feel like going out to meet people is much too difficult.I'm a quiet person and talking to unfamiliar people usually makes me nervous.And so it goes. Thanks for your always wonderful comments.

Always,

Tibbs
 

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